This is something I have been writing about on many occasions, on different blogs. At least one of said blogs no longer exists, so I’ll just do it again. And again, until I’m there. I don’t need, nor do I want, to live big, fast and fancy. On the contrary, I want to live slowly, and I want to be well connected in my life.

Now, while money ain’t everything, it is the one thing creating opportunity and possibility in this godforsaken society we live in. Without money, you’re grounded. Money, or the lack thereof, decides what you can or cannot do – quite effectively, onto that. With money – you can do anything. Without money, you can’t do shit.

That’s part of the worldwide agreement human beings has created to have a ground to stand on, in our individual dreams – accordingly to don Miguel Ruiz, but this is also something I’ve been aware of for some twenty years or so. We need a common ground to stand on, or the common dream would be very wobbly.

Bearing that in mind, an agreement I would like to do with myself is – to be a woman with financial means to create the life of her (mine!) dreams.

How I’m going to get there, I have no idea – but that’s not part of the agreement. The agreement is to be that woman, with those financial means. The how-to-get-there is fairly irrelevant, aside from the fact I’d like to enjoy it.

Now – as for my life dream itself, aside from money, is quite simple. I don’t want to live fast, fancy or supercool. My dream is to live in a cabin/cottage somewhere out in the forest. I don’t need that much space (although I do want enough space for the things I enjoy doing), and I want to be able to open the door and step right into nature. In this cabin/cottage, I’d like to keep couple of dogs, couple of cats, and perhaps some pygmé goats and perhaps even some hen.

The whole point is living close to, and in companionship with nature. I would really, really like that. And far away from people. I’m tired of the constant buzzing of people thinking, people talking, people being everywhere. Even when I’m inside my apartment, there are still people only few meters away, in the apartments next to mine, under mine – everywhere. I want distance between myself and other people. I want peace and quiet, and lots of room for my own thoughts to grow. I would absolutely love that.

Another point with living like this is to make the bridge between physical and spirit world closer. To be connected in a way that at least I personally, feel I cannot be living in the city. Again: too many people, too much noise. I would so enjoy living in a way where I could and would be connected to earth and the elements.

I already adressed this in a previous post, but I’d also really like the ability (with all those financial means) and possibility to be generous with my money. I know I could do so much good, given the chance. There are so many causes I’d like to support. In general, I would direct my support towards animal organizations. I’d like to support dogs, cats, elephants, dolphins, lions… I’d love to do that. Not to mention, I have friends who I’d love to spoil rotten. I know this sounds like I want a whole shitload of money – and quite frankly, yes, I do.

Because you know what?

I would like to have fun, the rest of my life. I’d like to know what it’s like, knowing you’re safe, not having to turn every penny over and over again before spending it. I’d like to know what it’s like to live in abundance, and to share that abundance just because I can.

It feels weird to adress this in the end, since money ain’t everything – but, I’d also like to have close, deep, intimate connections with a selected few people. I want to love, and to feel love – properly. I want healthy, prosperous, loving relationships with the people that matters to me.

Quite honestly, I don’t feel that I’m asking for much. Compared to my current situation, it’s a lot. But the general idea of it, isn’t really that much. But this is the kind of life I would like to agree with myself that I am going to live.

Not that I have any idea of where to start. But perhaps I should start with the people. Taking care of the relationships I have, and finding new ones. I’ll get back to you on that one.




This is a blog about my spiritual journey. The focus from january 2019 will be on my entering the shaman path. It’s exciting in every way possible, and I cannot wait to experience more.


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