I have joined a few Facebook groups on shamanism. In one of them, I read a shared post today dealing with how everything around us functions as mirrors. Even our pets mirror us. And what we see in our mirrors, no matter which shape they are in, are things that may need dealing with in one way or another.
One of my main goals in life is to be a good human being. I want to be a person people like. You know, the kind of person (woman) that people turn around and look at when I walk by. I do want to be awesome.
Because my need to be seen and aknowledged is overgrown due to especially my mother being unable to fulfill my needs as a toddler, young child, teenager et cetera.
As a matter of fact, I think I am a fairly good human being. I think I am a quite good friend. A good mom to my two cats and my dog. I am kind, decent, I love quite fiercly, I do my best to help and protect the people I hold close to my heart as best as I can. I am smart, I have a rather interesting view on life, I am fairly well educated – et cetera.
But there are always things to fear. Always, always something to fear.
And the post I read in that Facebook group today really made me think. Most of the time, I enjoy the image of myself I see in other people. But there are certain circumstances where the image I see gets really, really ugly. And I just realized now, that I am ugly when I let fear control me.
So basically, the only way I can think of to interpret this, is that when bad things happen in my life, they only mirror what I consider the worst parts of myself. At the moment, I am experiencing a number of events that make me lack money. I don’t have money enough for certain things that happen, which stresses me out completely and create a negative circle.
The solution for this should reasonably, then, be to change the image of myself in the mirror. To switch my selfimage from someone lacking into someone having. This is very much law of attraction-work, if you will, but since I prefer doing this the shamanic way, I’ll go at it from a different perspective and with a different method.
I am a little bit too tired to grasp this completely, but I think I’m actually onto something here. I am thinking that what this mirror shows me may not actually be true. What I see when I look in the mirror created by others could actually be a false image of myself that I’ve been lead to believe is true, for way too long.
How fascinating is that? Seriously. If I can make out of this what I want to do, this will be a change of the game for me. Amazing. ♥
I am going to think about this, and most likely write more of it. First, however, I do intend to sleep.