So, for a while, I’ve had problems with my journeying. They started out very nicely, and then I got stuck. I couldn’t get into the nonordinary world; it was like I was not let in. Instead of going there, I’d fall asleep or just be.. stuck on the outside.
Now, the reason for this is, I believe, my pms (as usual). When I have my pms, I tend to disconnect from pretty much everything. I disconnect from myself to a very high degree, which is both annoying and discomforting. Up until maybe six, seven months ago, my pms and my period was very predictable. I always knew when and how – which then changed on the inside of two months. These days, I have no idea of when, how or why. The only good thing with that is it’s not even remotely close to as bad as it used to be. But still – it’s annoying, since I cannot connect spirit and body during my pms.
However; today I decided that I’d do some painting. The style in which I paint is nowhere close to realistic. I’d say it’s more symbolic, in a rather childish way. Not sure how to describe it, actually. Anyway – ever since my inner self told me I should start painting again, as well as study shamanism, I’ve been thinking that I should use my painting as a shamanic tool. So I did some of that today.
After that, I figured I should try another journey. What’s the worst that could happen, eh? That I fall asleep, which would feel ridiculous, but oh well.
And for once (considering the last two or so weeks), I actually made it into the nonordinary world. I got to see a glimpse of my secret/sacred garden, which I appreciated. It looked pretty much like I expected – no surprise there. As previous journeys, however, I don’t actually see very much, it’s more a feeling for me. I can get clear flashes of something, and this is what happened today.
I met another spirit guide today. The first one who presented himself to me was not what I had expected – at all, and neither was this one. He, too, showed himself in a short visual flash, and I have to admit I was flabbergasted. Of all spirit guides I could ever conjure up in my imagination, this was… oh, wow, I would never even have begun to dream this one up. It is not a bad thing, though – but quite hilarious.
The easiest way to describe him is like an adult version of Peter Pan, or perhaps a slightly younger Robin Hood, or a jester dressed in green.
And the most hilarious of all is the fact that while I actually had a question, the only thing this Peter Pan character had to say was that I have to get myself ready, because I am meeting someone within two weeks. And by meeting someone, I can only guess that he means a partner.
I’m sorry, but WTF!?!?!?!? 😀
I really don’t mind meeting him or having him as my guide – and this too, I can only speculate that he chose to be with me because he thinks I’m too serious, take myself too seriously, or something. He seems to believe that I need some humour, anyway, and who am I to resist? 🙂 Oh, and another reason could be that he knows that I do my best creations when I am fed up with all the shit coming my way. He may be here to pester me into action. 😀
So, in short, after few weeks of no access, I am amazed and amused (!) with going back to the nonordinary world.