I just got the last books I ordered on shamanism, today. Being me, I can’t wait until that moment when the books are already read and I sit there on top of all the new knowledge I’ve gathered. Needless to say, I’m not there yet since I haven’t read the books – yet. It’s slightly annoying, since it is almost a sense of stress over this need-to-know-already.
So, my plan is to, instead of being so childishly impatient, I am going to work on being patient, moving one step at a time. I am going to read a few pages here and there, and above all – I want to work on the actual doing part of this. I want experience, albeit it’ll be for myself only, but still. I want experience to overpower my intellectual understanding of it.
I’ve been accused on several occasions of being overly intellectual about so many things that should be dealt with, emotionally. This is a shift that I’ve gone through as an adult. When I was younger, I did deal with everything through emotion – and maybe that’s why it was easier for me to access these kinds of things back then, than it has been for many years.
Which leads me to think that next time I go on a shamanic journey, I’ll ask a question related to that, actually. This is such a big deal for me, in general, not that specific question alone, that I find it hard to know where to start.
Which in turn makes me think of the first full journey I took, and what I learned from that. Change is better done when done small – it’s quicker that way, rather than when change is greater than life right away. While being impatient as a child in some aspects, I do believe that is quite right.
Oh, and by the way. I glanced over a couple of pages in Sandra Ingerman’s book Shamanic Journeying, where she write about how shamans experience their journeys. Some actually do see things, others hear the answers to their questions, and some feel the communication rather than anything else. And some combine one or two of these ways of understanding the nonordinary world.
Me personally; I wouldn’t say that I actually see. It’s more like being sent images that I feel, rather than see. These images makes it very easy for me to associate and understand the message this way. I am the one putting words to whatever is communicated (which, for that matter, makes me understand better how Esther Hicks is recieving the information from Abraham, as has been explained in various clips on Youtube).
Oh, and another realization I’ve made is that after listening to a number of youtube clips of various shamans, I can clearly state that I have suffered both soul loss and power loss. There are countless reasons for this, naturally, but nothing I intend to adress today (or maybe even at all). I do believe that I have managed to gather quite a large portion of these lost pieces of myself, but this too is something I intend to adress when meeting my spirit animal(s).