So many questions
So, I told you that I’ve been told by… my inner self, my soul, or whatever one wants to call it, that I am to begin studying shamanism. Since I can’t do much else but obey such a strong and powerful thought, I’ve already bought myself two books (due to arrive in a week or so). Ignoring the fact I just re-arranged my living room for more open space, my bookshelves are now overly, stupidly, ridiculously full – so why not get myself a few more books?
I am on the verge of using my very last money this month, buying few more books – just because I want to. Since I have no intention of letting go of the law of attraction, just using it side by side, I intend to create a reality where the taxes for my car are easily paid anyway. I refuse to feel guilty for (maybe) doing this.
Anyway; this post is going to be about something that I find extremely fascinating. All the things I have been more or less told to start doing again, are things that make me remember what it’s like being whole. I really do enjoy the fact that all the things I am going to do, are things that will re-build and strengthen my core – and this, I appreciate so much.
I also very much enjoy the fact that while the LOA is one thing – it is only one thing. That road seems both thin and shallow, if you think of that as one single path to walk. I told a friend just today, actually, that most of all these things that spirituality is all about, no matter exactly what you choose to do, is pretty much the same. When you look at what it actually is, it is (at least to me) very clear that it’s all the same – the only difference, really, is how we describe them, and wether or not the work we put into it is with or without physical tools.
Another thing I really like is the fact that since everything is pretty much the same, I can gain a deeper understanding for it by connecting the dots between one way of doing something, and another. If you have at least a basic understanding of astrology, it’s much easier to interpret some of the cards in a Tarot deck, because the signs are sometimes represented on some of the cards. It provides a wider perspective and way of learning and understanding.
I really can’t wait until I get all of these books (although I’m not really sure of where to put them, since I think every shelf is full). There are so many things I want to start thinking about (and am thinking about), there are so many things to plan, to start changing…
One good example is this; I don’t celebrate anything. Well, all right, I do celebrate my birthday because I think it’s absolutely amazing and awesome that I came into the world, that many years ago. Entering this world should be celebrated. But other than that – I don’t celebrate anything. I also have, I think, a rather respect-less way of viewing things that others have a lot of respect for.
So I’m thinking that I should start thinking about what I do find sacred in life, and start celebrating in one way or another. I highly doubt I’ll start celebrate christmas – but I figure there are other things that feel important to me. I want to find that feeling of awe, in another perspective than through the LOA.
This whole thing is so cool. I can’t help thinking that. It shows me quite clearly that the LOA is one thing, and one thing only, and that so many different paths can meet in one person and create.. magic!
As a last note in this post, I can say that I am extremely surprised of all this. I’ve been doing various things throughout the years, but it’s been a long time since then, and I actually thought I’d never do any of it again. So, you see my overwhelming feeling of surprise, at the same time as I feel so very grateful and excited about it. That alone tells me I am onto something that will be very, very good for me.