Sorry for the lack of regularity of posts. I’m being too busy painting my nails, trying to be all girl-y. 😀 Today, I am going to tell you about my greatest creation yet. I’ve already told you (although a bit short) about my bipolar disorder, that I need help to get my life back together due to some very complicated stuff that’s been going on. I need the help because I have no idea of how to do it myself.
When a person, like me, live with some kind of disability – be it physical, mental or whatever, but one that makes it difficult to handle stuff like finances, caring for yourself, contacts with public offices et cetera, in Sweden we can get help from a person who can do quite a lot for you. I’ve had one of these people, but for a number of reasons it didn’t work out the way I wanted it to. Among others (albeit a small one), this persons attitude towards me was one of the patting-on-the-head-kind, and that is not flattering for anyone. I ended that professional relationship and applied for another one – one of my own choice. The office responsible for this service refused to appoint the person of my choice, for a number of reasons, none of which were decent or even right – just because they could.
So – after almost a year of the court in my town asking both sides for a variety of opinions et cetera – yesterday, I recieved a letter with the final say. And the say was in my favour.
I have struggled for about a year and a half with this. For the last few months, I have been very focused on thinking that it’s already mine. I have known from the start that those refusing to give me this were wrong, and I’ve been right all along. But I have to admit that it is overly and stupidly satisfying to read the court letter, where they cut every argument from the office in pieces. Everything was in my favour.
And I cannot even begin to tell you how incredibly relieved I feel, to finally, after so long, have someone hear me. Listen to me, and give me the right of what I’m asking for.
And with this (I am still in a bit of a chock, actually), I feel that my mindset is beginning to change. For example; I’ve been wanting to move for many years, and there are so many reasons why I haven’t had the chance. But now – I am already thinking about and planning on my next place to live. It’ll be awesome, both for me and, especially, my dog.
I haven’t come far enough with the LOA to know that I can fix all the complications of my life. But now, I don’t have to. And the more help I get, the more I will get rid of, and the more I will be able to do for myself. So to me, this is among the best – and, actually, coolest things that could ever happen. It’s bloody amazing.
So – on the issue of me turning my life around, on me slowly but surely beginning to create the life that I want… bloody hell, here I come. In my book, this is the greatest thing I’ve created for myself in a very long time.
The law of attraction has little, if anything to do with deserving – but this, I feel that I actually do deserve. And that is the first time in my entire life that I can honestly say that I deserve having something else than the life I have presently.
And now, I got it. Just the beginning of it, but I got it. ♥