My mind works in mysterious ways. I find that I usually search for (and find) various ways of understanding different concepts. Presently, I am working on understanding the fact that it’s all right to fill your own space with – yourself. That it’s ok to fill the space you’ve been given, to not excuse yourself and give your own space to someone else all the time.
One, rather surprising, way of understanding this is finding out that the colour I prefer wearing on my nails and my face, is red. For a long time I’ve been convinced it’s pink – the dusty, gray-ish and/or wine-ish pinks. And while I still really enjoy these colours, I’ve found that red is the colour that brings me to life.
Now; when it comes to the colour red, I think most of us can agree on the fact that there are many kinds of red – and I don’t like all of them. I want and need a red that goes rather heavily into blue. A cooler red, so to speak. Preferably, also to the darker side rather than the lighter – but not too dark. I am very picky.
It may sound silly to learn things through colours, but for me – being a person who for many, many years has not been wearing make up at all, dressing exclusively in black (still do, and most likely will do for eternity), to begin wearing make up thinking that neutral does the trick, to realize that red is it… that’s quite the journey.
Being me, I might get into analyzing this rather heavily. I’m thinking it may also be a very clear landing in my base chakra (stability) that’s going on. I need to think about this, if no other reason than it’s interesting.
But it also does make me think about things like… if I wear a dusty pink or a more discreet wine-red, who am I then? Does that give me away as something specific, compared to if I choose to wear stronger reds? Do I tell myself something different? Does it affect how I percieve myself? Do I signal something different to others?
I have no answers yet – at least not for myself. I’m sure there are lots of answers to all of my questions out there. In the beauty business, for example. Among those researching colours.
I can’t answer if I am going to enjoy red the way I do now for the rest of my life. But I do think it’s immensely interesting that I, all of a sudden, feel this way.