Really, this isn’t a new idea for me. It popped up… well, in all honesty, I have no idea – few years ago!? 😀 Due to my bipolar disorder, lack of energy et cetera, I haven’t been able to actually do it yet. But the thought of it stuck up its head about a week or so ago, and for once I don’t feel the rush I usually do. It feels more like… yeah, I’ll do that. I’ll let the idea take its course, and it’ll get done when it’s supposed to.
The idea? Oh, I am going to write myself a book. I am going to write a book about growing up with two parents so different that there really was a cultural bang being inbetween them. They separated when I was very young, and I ended up living permanently with my dad, visiting my mother every other weekend or so.
There is lots to be said about my childhood, none of which is best done here. If you’re interested, you can read more about the book project at Bipolarblog.se, which is where I blog about my life with bipolar disorder. The blog is in swedish, but is easily translated into numerous languages.
What’s rather funny with this is money has no part of this equation. I don’t see money as important at all. First, I thought I’d publish it as a physical book, and immediately, thoughts of how to finance it appeared. Then I figured – why is it necessary to publish it on paper? I have the whole Internet at my feet. I’ll just make a pdf and let people purchase that to read, and I’m set to go.
It’s liberating not feeling bound by, or hindered by the idea of money. It gives me the freedom to do pretty much exactly what and how I want. If it produces money for me in the end, noone will be happier and more pleased than I – but it’s not my number one goal.
I call this inspired thought, because it feels right. It feels like something I need and want to do. For many reasons, none of which is important to anyone else but me, but also because I believe that other people can learn from what I have to say.
The best part of it is that I am not feeling any rush. I feel like it’s okay to take my time. To figure out how to write this book, how to “build it”, so to speak, find the right language for it, et cetera. And more best parts of it is that since I intend to make it an e-book, I can do everything with it myself. Writing, design, illustrations et cetera. There will be no cost involved unless I want to.
I love it! ♥