So, today I intend to talk about my gratitude for what I believe might be among the very few times in my life where I feel that enough is enough. I am a sugar addict (recovered), with other outlets for my addictive behaviour. I have been rather deeply in one of them for the last few months (shopping), but now I am beginning to feel that – enough is enough.
So, with my financial situation, I’d say that I have spent an enormous amount of money the last 5 – 6 months on shopping. I love shopping. And these last few months, I’ve been shopping for what other people manage to shop through years and years. I found a new interest and have been shopping for that. I have absolutely loved it and I love having all that which I have shopped.
But I am slowly coming to the realization that – enough is enough. I am beginning to feel that I have what I need. What I might want now, I can get every now and then, I don’t need to get everything at once.
I like that feeling of being full.
And I have to admit that I really enjoy this feeling of being satisfied, because the need to shop is, I believe, the result of an inner stress which is not necessarily healthy. Just like any other addiction, really.
So what I intend to do right now, is to lean back and enjoy what I have. I have – truly, an abundance of what I bought. I don’t really need anything more at the moment, although I may buy some few things here and there only because I want to. But I don’t feel that need – and for this, I am very, very grateful.
In general, I am finding myself in that feeling of not needing very much. I have so much food that I’m not sure I’ll be able to eat it all before it gets bad. I have food for the cats and the dog. I got tobacco for myself. Toilet paper. A car that’s functional and paid for. An Internet that works seamlessly. All the essentials. What else could I possibly need?
Aside from the weather which is too bloody hot for me, I feel pretty much at peace.
So today, I am more than grateful for the ability to say to myself – enough is enough.