I am amusing myself with reading through the first course of the Trinfinity Academy, created by Bentinho Massaro. Although nothing is really new for me, it’s still interesting to see it so handsomely handed down to understandable bits and pieces. I am sure that there are many who work very hard to understand and grasp the meaning – not to mention, actually do, most of what’s said.
What it does to me, is to get my head spinning. Partly because I really, really enjoy the mental challenge of this. Partly because the sense of I is expanding so quickly that I almost loose track of who and what I am – if there is such as thing.
And the funny thing about that, specifically, is – to continue on what I wrote the other day, that I feel more and more detached. It’s like… I’ve wanted so many things for such a long time – and I find myself not really wanting them, at all.
It’s like I’m floating. In a big bowl of soup. No, not even that. I don’t know in what, but it feels like I am floating. It’s quiet – I can hear noises from afar, but inside my head, it’s quiet. There’s nothing, just… the sense of my being.
There are so many things that I become aware of. I don’t even know where to start. I don’t think I even can begin to express all of them. Not if I want to make sense to anyone else but me. I only just now realized that whatever I want in my life needs to come from me. Might seem like a simple thing to realize, but it’s not. Or maybe it is. Depends on how you choose to look at it, I suppose.
I am so pleased that this is not a competition. I am so pleased that it’s ok that it takes time. I am also so pleased (and grateful!) that my journey seems to go rather quickly. But then again; I’ve been waiting for all this for so long, and I did ask to go fully into this, so I suppose that’s what’s happening to me right now.
But to return to the Trinfinity Academy – if you are interested in this on a rather hardcore, philosophical level, I’d recommend you to take a look. It’s quite heavy, and it’s quite different from reading the book about the Secret. It requires some truly deep mental and emotional work. But it’s really, really interesting and even if you won’t make it work for you at once, I think it will still give you lots of rewards.
As a sidenote, and I don’t know if this is a result of this academy or just by my own work with all this – but from having absolutely no ideas at all, whatsoever, about what I want with my life, I am experiencing ideas starting to bubble. None of them are done cooking yet, they have no shape and form quite yet, but they are creating themselves in my unconciousness and they will make themselves known when they are ready.
I like it. ♥