There are so many thoughts. Sometimes I wonder how the hell they manage to fit inside my head. But then again; maybe there’s a cloud somewhere out there, where thoughts are created and then channelled through me and everybody else – much like a computer cloud, equally abstract and for some, difficult to grasp.
When it comes to spirituality, I’m sure there are others out there just like me, who have been doing this and that. I’m talking about various ways of directing energy and creating things.
To me, pretty much everything one can do when it comes to this kind of creation, is basically the same. One way of expressing the law of attraction is by doing what is sometimes referred to as magic. It’s just another way of thinking about the same concept, and it holds other beliefs about how creating and manifesting is done, and what is required to do it.
I came to think about whether or not this whole thing could or should be considered a religion. And I came to the conclusion that no, it should not. Why? Because, in my experience, religion is putting the responsibility on a higher power – God, for support, some kind of God-ly action, et cetera. To me, this is patronizing on a very high level, expecting someone else to know better. And since this is everything that the law of attraction is not, it cannot be percieved or used as a religion. As a philosophical way of living, yes, most definitely, but not as a religion.
Another thing that I’ve been thinking about is this whole thing with finding ways of explaining this concept so that people understand. I may be making it harder than it needs to be for myself, but I still do have that abstract mind that needs metaphores to understand certain things.
Like; I came to think of the law of attraction as we, ourselves, are being projectors. We project everything we think is true, onto our reality, and it reflects back to us. This is how we build our beliefs on what reality is. This is not new to me either; it’s actually something I learned through my studies in the history of art (the theoretical and methodical parts of it) – that perception is based on everything we think we know, what we have learned through our lives, what we see, et cetera. Therefore, we can think of ourselves as either the projector itself, or as the person controlling the projector – and if so, our physical bodies being the projector, more or less.
I have to admit that I am deeply enjoying all of these ponderings that I have. It’s been many years since I was active with the process of this line of thought, and I am enjoying it immensely.
Which leads me into another line of thought;
I want to experience beauty. I want my life to be filled with beauty. It is such a bliss to be inside something beautiful, and I want that for myself. It is very easy for me to experience happiness when I experience beauty, and I want all of it.
Which leads me into yet another thought;
I have, for quite a while, been on the verge of leaving the concept of beauty behind me. At least when it comes to myself being the creator of it. I’ve worked as a photographer, I’ve had my own business as a photographer, and it didn’t work for me. But I realize that maybe I’ve had the wrong idea about it – maybe it is the feeling that I have right now, in this moment, that needs to go into it. The overwhelming idea of beauty.
When thinking of my life, there are two lines of things that I would like to do. One part has to do with beauty – photography, since I happen to be very good at that. The other part has to do with the relation between human and canine – helping people to create a good spirale in their communication and handling their dogs.
I need to think a bit more about these things and see how I can make them work. But at this very moment, it feels like there is an answer, I just need to find it.
Isn’t it exciting, this whole thing? 🙂 I sometimes find it hard to find the feeling, the gratitude, the joy and the bliss – but when I do, it’s absolutely amazing.
But quite frankly, sometimes it’s a bit annoying, too. If and when I find myself on too high a frequency, my head starts spinning, I get dizzy and feel like I loose the connection between myself and reality.
I need to find a balance there, as well.