The need to connect spirit and body
I’ve been watching so many youtube videos on the law of attraction that I think I need to take a short break. The amount of information is getting so large that I think I may actually need some time to sort it through, to let it find it’s place in my head, so I can start practicing according to whatever pattern it forms within me. Does it make sense?
Sometimes it feels like there are so many things I need to know before I can start getting things done. I’m not sure there really are that much to know and/or remember. What I believe is most important is to find and sustain the feeling of creation, and then just do. The rest of it – it doesn’t necessarily matter, because things work the way they do, wether or not I know/remember.
The most important thing of all, I believe, is to know what my main goal is. For me, who has experienced being poor and ill for a large part of my life, I would like to change this experience. I want to replace illness with wellness, good physical and mental health and happiness, and my being poor with my being wealthy. Pretty much the opposite of what I’ve had – and to be honest, chosen, previously in my life.
I remember when I was first introduced to the law of attraction. I was so provoked and offended by the idea that I – and so many others with me, somehow had chosen all the bad things that had happened to me. It does get easier to understand and accept when you start thinking in terms of life lessons, your higher self, agreements with, for example, your parents, before you were borne, in the sense of this is what I intend to learn within the lifespan of this body.
One of the things I find somewhat difficult is everything that I need to re-learn. All the beliefs that I have that does not befriend me. It is hard to find them and to start replacing them with something else. I’ll get there too, but as with everything else – it doesn’t happen over-night. At least not for me.
Maybe I’m overthinking it when I believe that I need to “know” how everything works, to be able to actually do it. Maybe I just need to let go of everything and start doing. Maybe I need to stop being what I think is me, and being who I want to be instead. To shed all the layers of my belief system of who and what I am, and get going.
I spoke to – actually the same person who introduced me to all this, so many years ago, yesterday. We both agreed on the fact that some of us who work conciously with the law of attraction do it so very hardcore. To me, it’s important to connect the spiritual and physical world – because after all, our bodies and our experiences do take place in a physical world. Some of the experiences we have are very closely connected to our physical form. And that has to be ok, too. While I am really excited about the spiritual part of this, I still want to feel connected to the physical, earthly experience of it too.
I think I’ll take some time to re-connect with the physical world and use that time to let all this information fall into this puzzle that I’m building in my head. There are so many things to take in, re-shape to fit into the puzzle and work for me, that… well, maybe it won’t take that long, after all. I’ve gotten further on this journey than I expected, already, so maybe it’ll work quicker than I think.
But no more youtube videos for a couple of days, I think. 🙂