I was just listening to an audio with Abraham Hicks answering questions from a woman who had trouble finding a partner who didn’t leave her after a short period of time. While listening to it, I had the weirdest thought about myself and my need for love.

Everybody needs and wants to be loved. That’s part of life, I’d say. But there are people who are and who has been living without partners for a very long time. I am one of them.

Now, my reasons for not having a partner are closely connected to my bipolar disorder. I’ve been in such a bad shape that there hasn’t been any place for a partner. Where I am at now, there’s no place for a partner either – I am too busy participating in my own, personal journey.

But when I think ahead of myself, I do have trouble seeing a partner in my life. And I just now realized why.

I don’t think there’s anyone out there who can love me more than I  already do, myself.

Now, this is curiuos in oh, so many ways. First of all – I hadn’t realized that I felt that level of love for myself. And it must be true, because it is the exact thought that I had.

I don’t think there’s anyone out there who can love me more than I already do, myself.

Another thing that I have been thinking before is that I don’t feel that need for someone else to be in my life, that I know some people do. I just don’t feel the need. Sure, I’m lacking some skills that could be useful to have around (I am so not handy I am almost handicapped), but that doesn’t really mean that I need a partner, now does it?

But quite honestly, I was so surprised at the thought that I love myself so much that I don’t need to love of another. Where the hell did that come from? It is not something that I would ever have expected to hear on the inside of my skull – really, truly not.

Or is this just some kind of me trying to hide that I am in no way whatsoever ready to accept and recieve the love of another?

I have no idea. It is, however, worth spending some time thinking about.

HUH! I’m amazed. What an overly curious thing to come to think about, all of a sudden. My chin is resting pretty much on the ground – which is quite the achievement, considering I live on the third floor. 😀


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