Choosing a path for this year
I do watch a lot of youtube videos concerning the law of attraction. I don’t buy them all as true, but once in a while I hear something that makes me nod and think that yes, I’ll do that. One of these things is to choose a larger goal on which to focus on, for this year. And for 2018, late as I may be, I choose to focus my manifesting skills on money.
Huh – I only just now realized that wanting money feels a bit shameful to me. Like I’m wanting something that’s shameful. What a curious realization to make, all of a sudden. I never thought about it – I’ve just been thinking that money doesn’t necessarily make you happy – and while I do believe this is true, it doesn’t take away the fact that money can give you much of what you want.
And since I’ve experienced what it’s like being very poor (everything is relative, but what it’s like being poor in Sweden of today), I would like to change my experience of – money. I would like to know what it’s like having so much money I’ll never be able to spend it all by myself. I would like to be able to have all the things that I want, and being able to spend money on others.
One of the reasons, I believe, that I feel shame over having money, is that I have a number of friends who are equally lacking money as I have been. Having money has always meant that I can get what they cannot get. I realize that this perspective is me reflected through their eyes, not necessarily mine.
But I also realize that I have this stupid idea of the sum being reduced by me spending. That 4 – 2 = 2 instead of 4 – 2 = 2 + 4.
There are many reasons for wanting to be generous. I have my own reasons for that, but when I can, I do want to be generous. And when I can, I try to be as generous as I can. This means that in a scenario where I live in abundance (which is what I plan to do), none of the people close to me would ever have to feel left out. I need my friends to feel as secure and safe as I do. I can’t live with the idea of me being all set, if there are people around me who are not.
I have really big plans for how to spend my money. On myself – obviously. But also on my closest friends – and on certain other things that I feel are important spending money on. Keeping animals safe; there are various cat and dog rescues in Sweden that I intend to support. Depending on what kind of money I have, perhaps also wild animals. There are so many people saving people, not as many helping to save animals. And since I prefer animals before people, it’s a very easy choice for me.
So – my choice for manifesting in 2018 is money. So I can do what I want, when I want it, how I want it – and so I can share with the people that I love.
This is an experience I would really enjoy having – for the rest of my life. ♥