Thoughts and thanx of today
I’ve been thinking about this whole creating-ones-life-sort-of-thing. I realize that it may actually be harder than it looks, and that I am not sure of how to focus my energy when it comes to the bigger things. None of this is news to me, but all of a sudden it became very clear to me. And while I really do believe in wanting to experience certain things rather than creating specific things, I think I may be in need (and wanting!) of some of these specific things.
I need to go to the dentist. I chewed off a piece of a tooth yesterday. It didn’t and doesn’t hurt, but I fear it might start at some point. Since I am also scared to the degree of being phobic when it comes to dentists, I haven’t been in quite a while. I suppose I could say thanks for the reason to go to the dentist. All I need now is the money to pay for it.
I want another tattoo – yet another than the one I already showed you how it’s going to look. I lost my father to cancer last year, and I intend to get a tattoo of the last thing he ever said to me. I do consider it rather private, so the tattoo is going to be a line of text, translated from swedish into gaelic. I have no idea of where to put it yet, but I want it, and it’ll be absolutely awesome. I already have a memorial tattoo for my dad, but I want this one as well – and also the other one.
More tattooes to me, to me! 🙂
Glasses. I got my pair of glasses last summer, but honestly – I think I need a new pair. What I would really prefer, though, is to have one pair of glasses, one pair of sunglasses – and then I also want contacts. I am rather dependent on my glasses, which is quite annoying sometimes. With contacts, I’d be able to choose wether or not to show off my make up better – as an example. With glasses, the make up is always obscured from view. So – one pair of regular glasses, one pair of sunglasses, and contacts for at least a year ahead. That’d be nice.
In general, I’m quite pleased with how I look. What I do not like, however, are my eyelids. I don’t know if it is due to age, genes or whatever, but the upper part of my eyelids are very, very baggy and droopy. My right eye looks like I’m constantly on drugs, and I don’t like it. The left eye is halfway down.
This, I would like to get done. I want my eyes to look as good as they did when I was younger. I don’t mind the tiny wrinkles – it’s the bags I want to get rid of.
So – thanks for giving me the opportunity to finding myself having beautiful eyes again.
There are many things to be grateful for, but today, at this very minute, I intend to value and be grateful for the fact that my pms seems to be fading. I notice that it gets slightly easier for me to actually feel my being grateful, not just speaking the words. Hopefully, this means that I’ll get my period soon, and then I’ll have a few weeks where my head functions normally. 😀
I would also like to voice my gratitude for my dog. I love all my pets equally, but the dog is the reason I need to go outside. Without my dog, I wouldn’t leave my house unless extremely necessary. With her, I have to get out several times a day, and for this, I am very grateful.
Oh, least but not last (at all!), I am very grateful for the fact that I have a sewing machine and lots of fabrics to make clothes of. It’s absolutely awesome and working wonders for my wardrobe. 😀