Correcting patterns of thought
I, among many, many other women, suffer from PMS(D). Since maybe six months or so, I am taking MSM and my PMS(D) has improved drastically. However; it still strikes every now and then, and what it does to me now is it changes my ability to think straight.
When I am not under the influence of PMS(D) or depression, I like the way I think. I do manage to keep a straight line of positive thoughts, to keep directing them rather than being controlled by them.
When I am under the influence of PMS(D) or a depression, I can’t control my thoughts or the way I feel – at all.
This is why it is so bloody important to me, to do whatever I can to stay away from PMS(D) and depression as I can. Now, doctors and therapists have told me that being low/depressed is part of life – and yes, it is. Being unable to control how you feel, think, react and act, however, is not. At least that’s how I feel about it.
This is a perfect example of finding balance between the spiritual world and the physical, material world. We are affected by our bodies. Our souls are connected to the physical world through our bodies, and our bodies obeys the laws of physical cause and effect.
Which is why I am immensely grateful for the fact that, even if perhaps too little, there still are medicines available, for both depressions, bipolar disorder and PMS(D). When you get ill in either of these (or something else entirely) one might argue you are too heavily and strongly living through your body. And again – finding the balance between body and soul is of the outmost importance, I think.
Compared to the level of depression I’ve been in, the level of my PMS(D) right now (after starting taking MSM) is absolutely nothing, right now (although it’s been absolutely the worst, most dreadful nightmare you could imagine). But it does remove my ability to keep the line of thought and feeling necessary to be successful in nearly anything. Law of attraction is rather brutally interrupted during the times of my PMS(D).
So – let me voice my gratitude that there are pills to take, that helps remove the heavy veil of obscurity, of darkness in mind, of unpleasantness and destructiveness in general. Sometimes, these pills work better, sometimes less, but they do deprive me of the ability to think “correctly”. I’d prefer another word, but I can think of no better at the moment.
Because what is actually kind of scary, is that depression or PMS(D) removes your (my) ability to feel differently than downright bad/crappy. I can think thousands of positive thoughts, and still, the way I feel doesn’t change. I just don’t believe it. I think it can be changed, but the amount of work necessary for that, is incomprehensible for anyone who hasn’t been there.
I am no stranger to accepting help when it comes to medicines. I prefer as little as possible, but when I need it, I’ll take it – any day. Anything to prevent a line of thought and feeling that does me no good. Not only for the law of attraction to work, but also for my own well-being.
So now that I’ve taken myself a little pill to help correcting my pattern of thought, I would like to adress today’s little miracle.
I had to go shopping this morning – to fetch medicine at the drugstore. While out, I went looking at shoes. I found a pair at a decent price (for me), and when I paid, they turned out to be on sale. So – a pair of shoes for me, to a cheaper price!
I like it! =)
Not to mention, I also managed to get myself some other small items I’ve been meaning to get for a while. Among these, bones and snacks for my beautiful, beautiful dog.