Starting to manifest
So I’ve been at this for only a week or two. Really. And I wanted to tell you about my very first manifestation that I managed to create – which is absolutely awesome. I was amazed and in awe – still am, to be quite frank.
As a direct result of having bipolar disorder and having been in a very bad shape for many years, my financial situation is very, very bad. Couple of weeks ago, I recieved a bill from my insurance company, charging for six whole months on my car insurance (because the monthly, automatic payments hasn’t worked for me, they never do).
Now, normally, this would freak me out completely. I’d break down, hide and pretend it didn’t happen, and stay unable to pay this bill, which for me with my financial situation, is completely impossible to pay in one go.
However; when I opened the envelope and saw the sum, I felt a calmness fall over me. I really did say to myself that this will work itself out. I will be able to pay this bill, somehow. I have no idea of how, but it will be paid. On time, onto that.
And you know what?
It did. First, I paid a third and e-mailed the insurance company, telling them my situation. Then, I wrote about it on my bipolar blog, and how worried I was. And I was both worried and stressed out, but I decided to not let that take over. And; within the course of maybe ten days, I had recieved financial support from several people, that not only gave me the chance to pay the whole bill, but also gave me the opportunity to buy myself some smaller feel-good-gifts.
Eat that! 😀
Due to some of my insecurities and fears, I intend to practise my skills of creating my life on smaller things before I go for the really important stuff. That’s why I now intend to manifest a new tattoo for myself. I got my first tattoo when I was 18. Then, I spent a number of years thinking I couldn’t afford it, so I got myself a number of piercings instead. About two years ago, on my 40th birthday, I got myself money for a tattoo in birthday present. After that, I have managed to get three more. It’s been a while, though, so I feel it’s time for another one.
This is what I’m getting, and I will have had it made on the inside of six months.
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