The Fool is the first card of the major Arcana in a Tarot deck. He represents a brand, new journey – a Fool who goes on a new adventure in life. I sometimes compare the Fool to a child. Quite naive, open to adventure and excitement – and much, much more.
Anyway; this is pretty much the state of mind where I am at the moment.
I come from a lifetime of depressions, anxiety, and eventually bipolar disorder. I have spent many, many years suffering to quite a large degree from my bipolarity. Not only from the illness itself, but also from the consequences from living with it for so long.
It has taken me many years to recover. More years than I care to think of, actually. But; here I am, not fully recovered – but enough to start re-building my life.
And this is where the Fool comes in. Now that I can begin to shake off all the years of suffering, I find myself standing here with my eyes wide open in fascination over how things function. I do, in a sense, feel like a child who gets to see the world beyond her, before, limited view. It’s amazing.
I am going to use this blog as a tool to sort my thoughts about living with the Secret, and to work on my manifestations. You will be able to follow me through this whole journey that I have ahead of me – and I cannot tell you just how excited I am.
I have lived for so long having nothing, so the idea of me being able to (finally!) create the life that I want for myself is… again; amazing.
It may be a bit wibbly-wobbly at first, but I am just getting started so I don’t worry too much about that. In the end, I will find myself where I actually want to be – that is something I know for sure.
You know… I actually am in awe. ♥